Denise

the tru ones are highlighted. wat can i say... i was bored

Fri, 22 Oct 2004 08:09:27 GMT

01. I have a mobile phone.

02. I'm obsessed with high heels.

03. I'm the youngest child.

04. I am a shopoholic.

05. I love hoop earrings.

06. I am a Princess

07. I love beer.

09. I can't live without lip gloss.

10. I can't live without music.

11. I lived in Purgatory for 3 months.

12. I spend money I don't have.

13. I'll be in college forever.

14. I've seen a UFO.

15. I get annoyed easily.

16. I eventually want kids.

18. I have more then a couple of horrible memories.

19. I am addicted to Lizzie McGuire

20. I am a person.

21. My first kiss was when I was 11

22. I start posh school in september

23. I love taking pictures.

24. I hate girls who are fake.

25. I can be mean when I want to.

26. My dreams are bizarre.

27. One of my closest friends is gay.

28. I have way too many purses.

29. I've seen 'Fight Club' at least 45 times

30. I usually dress how I feel that day.

31. I love 'Sex and the City'.

32. Sometimes I cry for almost no reason.

33. I hate when people are late.

34. I procrastinate.

35. I love winter.

36. I have too many clothes for my closet/dresser.

37. I love to sleep.

38. I wish I were smarter.

39. I'm afraid of flying.

40. I hate drama.

41. I am addicted to 'The O.C.'

42. I love my hair.

43. I never fight with my parents.

44. I love the beach.

45. I have never had the chicken pox.

46. I'm excited for the future.

47. I can't control my emotions

48. I can't wait till New Year's

. 49. I love the show 'Rich Girls'.

50. I love my friends. note-most of them

51. Christmas is my favorite holiday.

52. I can be very insecure sometimes.

53. I have broken most of my bones

54. I hate racist people.

55. I hate my computer.

56. I love guys that play the guitar.

57. I state the obvious.

58. I'm a happy person.

59. I love to dance.

60. I love to read.

61. I hate cleaning my room.

62. I tend to get jealous very easily.

63. I love cute underwear.

64. I love John Mayer.

65. I cry when I see animals/people getting hurt/abused.

66. I want to go to Greece.

67. I don't like to study for tests.

68. I am too forgiving.

69. I have a horrible sense of direction.

70. I love high school.

71. I have a talent of sweet-talking my way out of things.

72. I'm a badass girl.

73. I love kisses on the forehead.

74. I'm Hungarian

. 75. I love the color pink.

76. I love to sew.

77. I have blue eyes.

78. I love the Olsen Twins.

79. I played football

80. I become stressed easily.

81. I hate liars.

82. I like comfy sweatpants.

83. Paul Walker is my dream guy.

84. I love the smell outside after it's rained.

85. I love my family.

86. I hate needles.

87. I am a perfectionist.

88. I want to learn to play the drums.

91. I would love to have my own fashion line.

92. I can be quite selfish.

93. I still act like a little kid.

94. I despise dishonesty.

95. I love pictures.

96. I love my boyfriend.

97. I wish I were more motivated when it comes to school.

98. I love getting stuff in the mail.

99. I have problems letting go of people.

100. I hate the feeling of being alone. note-lonely...but not just like alone in my room

101. I don't want to be married.

102. I hate the fact that my jeans are tight.

103. I rule the world

104. I own China

105. I love Cruel Intentions

106. I hate Harry Potter

107. I am patient.

108. i like bunnies.

109. I often speak before i think, and then regret it.

110. I love summer.

111. I miss my friends who I haven't seen for a while.

112. I have lived in San Jose

113. I love water.

114. There are criminals in my family.

115. I smashed my tv up

116. Theme parks are fun

117. I would like to be famous one day.

118. Barbie is soooo cool! Isn't she?

119. Blonde hair rocks

120. I'm left handed.

121. I love my makeup

122. I love my hair straighteners

123. I have too many clothes.

124. I don’t smell, cuz I wash

125. I live for HOOOOT bubble baths.

126. I hate how summer is the shortest season.

127. I like watching the clouds

128. I’m listening to Ashlee Simpson right now.

129. I wish i could be in florida right now.

130. Pink elephants rock my world.

131. I wear mismatched socks.

132. I'm addicted to coffee. from starbucks

133. I love vanilla anything.

134. I hate broken promises.

135. Two words: sexy lingerie

136. I like wearing my boyfriends clothes

137. I'm bisexual

138.I like being cold better than hot

139 I’m blind and wear glasses sometimes

140. yay Ryan Phillippe

141. I’m just like a cross between Regina and Gretchen - lethal

142. My computer is in my room

143. It’s getting dark

144. The breaks in my heart are joined together with Barbie plasters

145. I like to drink pineapple juice

146. I heart my blue lagoon lipgloss

147. I have read the thesaurus

148. I hate two-faced people

149. Arrogance sucks

150. The end.

Try this out

Mon, 27 Sep 2004 11:47:43 GMT

This is actually a pretty cool quiz. Not hella long and retarded like most quizzes... so try it out if u have time and feel like it

haha

Wed, 01 Sep 2004 08:05:02 GMT

You Are Belle

You're most like Belle from "Beauty and the Beast"!

You don't take any shit, even from Beast.

In fact, you think his extrodinarily huge figure and sharp claws are kind of a turn on...

Which Naughty Disney Character Are You?

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So many thoughts....

Sun, 01 Aug 2004 01:38:05 GMT

So I'm sitting here on a Saturday nite at 6:30 thinking. Ive been doing quite a lot of that lately. There are so many things I need to figure out and half of the time I dont even know how to start. I dont even know how I turned into the person I am today. I know i used to be a fun, kind, loving, happy person. Now I look at myself and I'm isolated, mean, unloving, and unhappy most of the tine. How did that happen. I am taking many steps to understand who I am. It's taking me a while, and it will take me a lot more time... but I know that who I am now is not who I want to be. I hate who I have become. That's so hard to say. I want to be able to trust... I want to be able to just go out and meet people. Ive changed in so many ways that its incredible to me that I didnt even notice. Ive hurt the person I love the most. I left no trust, all ive left behind are the memories of few good and many bad times I made. I hope that in the end of all of this I will be left with confidence that I like who I am. Right now I feel as if there is no hope of recovery in any way. How can I fix something that I didnt even realize i was breaking? I asked myself that for the last few weeks. I now think I can. It will take more work than anything I have ever done before. And I am not just doing this for other people, I am doing this for myself. In the end I hope it will all work out. I have so many people that are mad or dissapointed by me now; including myself. I will make this happen and if it kills me (which i really hope it wont :o) I will become what I remember myself being 2 years ago.. and better. I will be able to love, laugh, trust, and just be happy again. It will be hard but I will do it. And I hope that the people that are mad at me now realize that in order to do this I will need time alone. I need space to understand who I am. I dont know who I am anymore. Im getting closer to realizing but it will take time. So please dont feel like I dont like you guys anymore because I do, and dont feel like I am purposely trying to avoid you... because in the end it will benefit us all. I love you guys all so very much.

i mean it

Tue, 20 Jul 2004 17:55:01 GMT

A girl and guy were speeding over 100
mph on the road...

Girl: Slow down. Im scared.
Guy: No this is fun.
Girl: No its not. Please, its too scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
*Girl hugs him*
Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it on
yourself? Its bugging me.

(In the paper the next day):

A motorcycle had crashed into a building because
of break failure. 2 people were on it, but only
1
survived.

The truth was that halfway down the road, the
guy
realized that his breaks broke, but he didn't
want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her
say she loved him & felt her hug 1 last time,
then had her wear his helmet so that she would
live even though it meant that he would die.

Would you do this for someone?? If so, repost

please protect him. -denise

Tue, 13 Jul 2004 04:50:33 GMT

talk about the most horrible ending to a weekend. dont ever take advantage of someone u love. before u know it its over and there isnt anything u can do except for sit at home and cry and cry and feel like ull never stop. i need a friendship with him because i think we love each other too much to not see each other anymore. i am a good person... i messed up... but everyone should be given a chance. i didnt get that. im just rambling. of course its my fault. i just wanna work it out, or at least talk

im so bored i will fill out this thing... :o)

Wed, 07 Jul 2004 06:27:12 GMT

Random
[Wallet]: im on the lookout for a new black one. right now... i got nothing. just my white purse
[Favorite top]: my grey and pink off the shoulder american eagle one';[Perfume/Cologne]: Victoria's Secret - sweet temptations
[Piercings]: belly button
[What you are wearing now]: ae khakis and my black work shirt
[In my head]: this cat is driving me crazy....
[Wishing]: i didnt have to work tommoroe
[Talking to]: dave online
[Some of your favorite movies]: ummm... dirty dancing, pretty woman....
[Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming months]: making money
[the last thing you ate?]: chocolate
[Something that you are deathly afraid of?]: losing a close family member.
[Do you believe in love]: Yeah
[Do you believe in soul mates]: no
[Do you believe in love at first sight]: kinda
[Do you believe in forgiveness]: Yes, but its hard
[if you could have any animal for a pet]: A kitty. i just got one and its very cute
[What are some of your favorite pig out foods?]: Pizza
[What's something you wish you could understand better?]: guys
[Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time?]: all my friends

In the last 24 hours, have you:
[Cried?]: no
[Bought something?]: Yup
[Gotten sick]: i am
[Sang?]: hummed prolly
[Eaten?]: duh
[Been kissed?]: Yeah
[Felt stupid?]: hehe
[Told someone you loved them, but didn't?]: nope
[Met someone new?]: at work... if that counts
[Moved on?]: not really
[Hugged someone?]: Yeah
[Fought with your parents]: kinda
[Dreamed about someone you can't be with?]: nah

Social Life:
[Boyfriend/Girlfriend?]: Boyfriend
[What type automobile do you wish you drove?]: A black 2004 rx8
[Would you rather be with friends or on a date?]: rite now friends.. i dont ever see them anymore. i always see my baby... like a constant date
[Where is the best hangout?]: My bed
[Do you have a job?]: Yeah
[Do you like being around people?]: i would not consider myself to be a people person. i get easily annoyed by almost anyone

Who:
[Do you argue the most with?]: James
[Do you always get along with best?]: no one
[Is the most trustworthy?]: my mom
[Makes you laugh the most?]: james
[Has been there through all the hard times?]: my mom
[Has the coolest siblings?]: no clue. me?

Personal:
[Who is your role model?]: Mom and grandparents
[Have you ever had a crush on someone u couldn't have]: havnt we all
[Have you ever cried over the opposite sex?]: yes
[Do you have a "type" of person you always go after?]: i thought i did but turns out i dont think i do
[Ever wanted to get revenge on someone because they hurt you?]: i sure did
[Rather be dumper or dumped?]: both... i like to be dumped cuz im not the bitch... and cuz for some reason its impossibe for me to dump people... but it would be nice to cuz then they would be the ones that would feel like shit for once... haha
[Rather have a relationship or a "hookup"?]: Relationship. thats wat i have. but i wouldnt mind a hookup if i wasnt in a relationship
[Want someone you don't have right now?]: No
[Ever liked your best guy/girl friend?]: no
[Do you want to get married?]: Yes, eventually.
[Do you want kids?]: yes
[Do you believe you know the person whom you will marry at this point in time]: id like to think so... but who knows
[What is your favorite part of your physical appearance?]: depends on the day... lol... i have nice eyes... and a nice tummy when im not hella fat like i am rite now
[What is your favorite part of your emotional being?]: ummm... who knows
[Are you happy with you?]: sometimes
[Are you happy with your life?]: i think so

LAYER ONE: On The Outside
Full name: Denise Monika Hoepfner
Birth date: July 4 1984
Birthplace: Germany
Current Location: Fremont, California
Eye Color: changes.. mainly a blueish
Hair Color: right now black and blonde... little brown
Height: 5'7
Righty or Lefty: Righty
Zodiac Sign: cancer

LAYER TWO: On The Inside
Shoes you wore today: etnies
Your weakness: any kind of food
Your fears: losing someone i love
Your perfect pizza: cheese, tomatoes, onions, mushroom, garlic, ham, pineapple
Goal you'd like to achieve: a good job... knowing wat the hell i wanna do

LAYER THREE: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
Your most overused phrase on AIM: wats up
Your thoughts first waking up: i dont want to go to work
Your best physical feature: eyes
Your bedtime: whenever
Your most missed memory: dunno

LAYER FOUR: Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke: coke
McDonald's or Burger King: McDonald's
Single or group dates: group are a lot of fun... but u gotta do single sometimes
Adidas or Nike: Adidas
Lipton Iced Tea or Nestea: neither
Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
Cappuccino or coffee: Coffee

LAYER FIVE: Do You?

Smoke: no
Cuss: of course
Sing: Yup
Have a crush(es): my boyfriend... i think other guys r cute...
Like(d) high school: most of it yeah
Want to get married: Yeah
Believe in yourself: i think so
Get motion sickness: No
Think you're attractive: sometimes.. depends on the day and how i feel.. haha
Think you're a health freak: no way, but i wish i was
Get along with your parents: most of the time
Like thunderstorms: hate them
Play an instrument: used to

LAYER SIX: In the past few months have you...
Drank alcohol: yes
Smoked: no
Done any drugs: no
Gone to the mall: if course
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: i dont like oreos
Eaten sushi: yes
Been on stage: nope
Been dumped: No
Gone skating: Nope
Gone skinny dipping: Nope
Dyed your hair: yes
Stolen anything: Nope
Lied: Yeah

LAYER SEVEN: Ever...
Smoked: no
Drank: yes
Played a game that required removal of clothing: no... how sad
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: yeah
Been caught "doing something": too close too many times
Been called a tease: yep. cuz i am
Shoplifted: yes

LAYER EIGHT: Getting Older
Age you hope to be married: between 25-27
Describe your dream wedding: lotsa people... lotsa flowers... white and baby pink... big church,.. lotsa decorations... all my family... perfect groom... perfect everything
How do you want to die: in my sleep
What do you want to be when you grow up: an english teacher
What country would you most like to visit: anything tropical

LAYER NINE: In a girl?
Best eye color?:
Best hair color?:
Short or long hair:
Height:
Best weight:
Best articles of clothing:

LAYER TEN: In The Numbers...
Number of people I could trust with my life: prolly around 4-5
Number of CDs that I own: i dunno
Number of piercings: 1
Number of tattoos: 0
Number of times my name has appeared in the Newspaper: one or 2
Number of scars on my body: many
Number of things in my past that I regret: lots

this is crap

Sat, 19 Jun 2004 20:05:46 GMT

its like we left high school and all of the sudden everything changed. we still hung out once in a while and it was fun.. and now everything is different. laura moved without telling us? candi always took care of us when we did something stupid like get drunk... and now shes busy with her life and so is everyone else. im sad. i feel like i have no more friends. i know u guys r still there but we dont see each other. and i would think if people like laura say that friends are so important and tells us she wants to go out with us and never calls... that it doesnt feel like we are so important after all. i understand when there are many things in ur life that are going wrong but friends are there to discuss those problems with. instead of runing away from them and not solving anything. now u live with your boyfriend who is probably not even talkin to his family? its hard to deal with problems but sometimes u have to. im just sad that u didnt think that we were important enough to get informed. we were all worried. all u had to do is call us one time. there are payphones. im just hurt, and mad... and in the end it all suxs because now everyone is gone and i have no friends. but i guess thats how it ends when other things are more important right?

Club club clubbing

Mon, 24 May 2004 06:30:00 GMT

Hey my cuties. Just wanted to let you all know I put our names on the guestlist for this tuesday nite. Laura, Candi, Me, Audrey, Jennifer.... let me know if u guys wanna bring anyone. Julie lemme know if you wanna go? Im bringing the alcohol. Laura what did u say i should bring? I gotta work that nite so we can just meet somewhere before we go and then drive there together. its in sunnyvale not sf. oh yeah candi do u still have my shirt? u guys just tell me that u can go so i know for sure k? i know u can laura, same with audrey and jenn... just not sure bout candi? but jenn said u can.... luv u guys all. hope to hear from u soon.

sorry

Tue, 18 May 2004 00:16:53 GMT

hey u guys sorry i didnt tell u if we're going for sure tommorow but i guess u figured i casnt go. i have hella things at work and james just got into a motorcycle accident. things have been crazy. i do wanna go next tuesday for sure though, i told them i cant work and all so i wanna know if u guys can go. write back asap. wat happened on monday to u candi? r u ok? and laura, r u and nick better again?bubye

CUTIES

Wed, 12 May 2004 18:20:34 GMT

my new email addy is mememeeh04@yahoo.com haha couldnt think of anything else. i think anyone can come to the club tuesday unless you guys (candi and laura) only wanna go us three. email me or comment here asap so i can find peole to go and put us on the guestlist. luv yaz. denise

hey hey hey

Mon, 10 May 2004 04:04:08 GMT

next tuesday WILL be girls nite. anyone let me know if u can go ok? its 2 dollar tuesday in sunnyvale. i need to let loose. we need one driver that wont drink... who will that be? write me back

its confusing

Mon, 03 May 2004 20:30:51 GMT

do u ever have that feeling u love someone but there mite be something else out there? i miss the thrill. i dream of just doing something stupid and not care. he doesnt. i feel guilty and dont know if i really should/ watever. i know i dont ever wanna loose him so i just gotta get over it. but i do know i need another wild, druken (u too candi!!!) girls nite out. tuesdays r $2 tuesdays. we can afford that. lets go and let loose. muah

IM BORED so here you go

Fri, 26 Mar 2004 07:58:32 GMT

X = TRUE
_ = FALSE

(_) i have never been drunk
(X) i have never smoked pot
(_) i have never kissed a member of the opposite sex
(_) i have never kissed a member of the same sex
(X) i never crashed a friends car
(x) i never have been to japan
(X) i never rode in a taxi
(X) i never had anal sex
(_) i never have been in love
(_) i never have had sex
(X) i never had sex in public
(_) i never have been dumped
(X) i never shoplifted
(X) i never have been fired
(X) i never have been in a fist fight
(X) i never had a threesome
(X) i never snuck out of my parent's house
(X) i never have been tied up (sexually)
(X) i never have been caught masturbating
(X) i never pissed on myself
(X) i never had sex with a member of the same sex
(X) i never have been arrested
(X) i never made out with a stranger
(_) i never stole something from my job
(X) i never celebrated new years in times square
(_) i never went on a blind date
(_) i never lied to a friend
(_) i never had a crush on a teacher
(X) i never celebrated mardi gras in new orleans
(_) i never been to europe
(_) i never skipped school
(X) i never slept with a co-worker
(_) i never cut myself on purpose
(X) i never had sex at the office
(X) i've never been married
(X) i've never been divorced
(_) i never had sex with more than one person within the same week
(X) i never have posed nude
(_) i never got someone drunk just to have sex
(X) i never cheated on my significant other
(X) i never had sex with my boss
(X) i never dated my roommate
(X) i never had a one night stand
(X) i never had sex on the grid.
(_) i never took someone's virginity
(X)i never had sex with my best friend
(X)i never had sex in a church
(X ive never been skydiving
(X) I have never been fisted and/or have never fisted anyone
(_) I have never been fingered and/or have never fingered anyone
(X) I have never thrown up in a bar (in the parking lot outside though...haha)
(X I have never visited a site held holy by a major religion
(_)I have never cheated on a final exam
(X I have never had a relationship with someone of the same sex
(X I have never been/gotten someone pregnant
(X)I have never smoked cigarettes

SEE I AMMMMM A GOOD GIRL :o)

WOOOHOOOO!!!!

Sat, 10 Jan 2004 09:18:22 GMT

Happy 2-year anniversary to me and james. YAY. wow such a long time... but im excited so its ok. too bad he isnt here... but thats ok too... he'll be here soon!!! :o)

this kinda suxs

Sat, 03 Jan 2004 18:11:03 GMT

I am having SO MUCH fun here and the time actually is going by fast like i was hoping... but have u ever realized when u havnt seen ur bf/gf for a while u start thinking if theyre hittin on other girls... or wat theyre doing in general but u dont know cuz u cant constantly call.. and even if u do its not like theyre home waiting for u the whole time cuz of the stupid time difference. jules should know wat its like. its so much fun but at the same time its isolating. i know i loved this feeling when i was single... and now that james is with me it kinda changed. not sure why... he changed me anywayz. i used to be a "fling" kinda girl.. i guess im not anymore. o well its ok too. do u really think me and him r gonna last? SERIOUSLY. dont give that o its ok u guys r so cute stuff... r we gonna last. it it worth it for me to put all my effort into this relationship? cuz if u think we r gonna last then i know its worth it... but if we arent... then i mite as well save my energy... and most of all another heartbreak. so who thinks this is going to last and who thinks it isnt. the truth would be nice. i made bread in a breadmachine so imma go eat that now. yay. im excited.. and it smells good... working on my present... damn its taking forever. only got like... 9 days to go till he gets here... actually 8 cuz today is almost over.... we'll see how far i get. luv u guyz. and please answer my question... im kinda frustrated here...

Happy New Year

Thu, 01 Jan 2004 15:40:30 GMT

It's weird.... James called me today to say happy new year... but it wasnt even new years for me. it was the next day... 10 hours later. o well. he didnt even call in time... for the past 2 years we've been together for new years. this year we decided since i couldnt be there he would call and we would be on the phone at the time 2003 changed to 2004. i got up extra early (time change) to get his call... did he call at midnight? nope. i was mad... but he called like 15 minutes after... he got off of work later and got stopped at a D,U.I. checkpoint. i hate those things... they have a lot of them on new years. o well... i guess i gotta believe that dont i? then i talked to ly (i dont think thats how u spell his name) and he wished me a happy new year... o yeah and i said happy new year to ricky too. yep yep. then i was tired so i asked james to call me back tommoroe. i didnt do much today. im working on my anniversary present. its taking such a long time. ive been working on it like 3 hours a day for like 3 days and its gonna take me weeks to finish... if not months... depending on how much i do every day. its the thought that counts rite? it wont be done on time but when it is i think it'll be really great... and i put all my effort into it so he should know our relationship means a lot... cuz lately when im on the phone with him he seems to think that i dont care.. or i dont love him. thats why i hate phones. u know how u have a conversation and all of the sudden the other person gets offended even though u didnt even mean what u said the way they took it? i hate that. but its the only way we can actually communicate while im here so i guess we gotta deal with this little arguments. i started one yesterday... but i apologized cuz it was hella retarded. the time difference sucks. even calling my family is hard. when ur 9 hours apart the only time to call is really early or late (if the person is up)... meaning that i have to either get up early.. or be home at nite cuz im either waiting for or going to make a phone call. o well... imma stop bitching now. the weather here is freezing cold but the air is so nice and refreshing. i go outside and my cheeks get red and my nose gets cold. i love it. i wish it was like this at home. everything is so peaceful here. not many houses, not many people, not many cars. its perfect. i wish i could take the parts i like from my america world and take them with me and put them into my germany world. that would be perfect. i hope it snows when james is here. my grandpa is giving me his NEW mercedes for when james is here so we can drive around. im excited and a little scared. the roads here are hella narrow, i dont know where to go, it might snow... but ill make it with my huni next to me... hehe. i miss him a lot. i miss my friends a lot too... but its ok cuz i love my grandparents a lot... and imma be hella sad when i leave again. but ill be back next year. on the plane here i sat next to this hella cute guy. he is 22 and from san jose. he was so nice we talked the whole time. turns out he had a 7 hour lay over just like me so we hung out after we got off the plane. he called his gf and she got hella jealous but its ok i guess... we went shopping... got a beer and a coke... some magazines... and sat down and just talked. it made me sadder though cuz it made me miss james. of course when i told him about it he thought i flirted. i would have if i didnt have james... actually i would have if this was about 2-3 months ago. but everything changed lately. all of the sudden i dotn get annoyed anymore, i want to spend time with him, and im happy with it being just me and him. i love it. wouldnt give it up for any hot guy in the world. even though i gotta admit... as sappy as this sounds... to me right now... he is the hottest guy in the world... AHHHH HOW CORNY. its the sleepyness talking... or perhaps the fact that i havnt seen em in a while... or could it possibly be that im finally admitting to myself that maybe he is rite? maybe we are meant to be? maybe i do love him more than anything... and maybe i was so offensive because i didnt want to see it? because i didnt wanna get hurt again? maybe... im starting to think so. creepy... but also creepy in a good way... u know that feeling u get when u first meet some cute guy u dont know? anticipation, thrill, and... that funny feeling in ur tummy... hehe. imma go now. i dunno wat else to say... except for... I HOPE IT SNOWS SOON!!!! I WANNA BUILT A SNOWMAN REALLY REALLY BAD!!!! woohoo.... comment comment comment u guyz im a little BORRRRRRRRRED!!!! muah

FINALLY

Tue, 30 Dec 2003 15:00:39 GMT

Can you all believe it??? Im updating!!! YAY!!! LoL. Technically im not really supposed to be online but my email doesnt work so i figured i would tell you guyz wats up through here. Allrite not too much has happened in the last few months. James and I went through some really rough times. More than ever before really... it took us months to work through it but i think that right before it was over we gave it one last push and we're making it work. I really hope it will. As of right now everything is awesome. But you never know wat happens right? But if i had the choice... i can truly say i hope everything stays like this forever... SCARY. ME SAYING SOMETHING LIKE THAT??? Ahhhh. LoL. Well in case you guyz dont know im in germany. yes again. away from everyone. its sad but also nice. i get to relax... but i miss my family, friends, and james. Hes coming here in like... 13 days so itll go by fast. The plane ride here sucked ass... but i hate planes so go figure. christmas was good. awesome actually. :o) Now Ive written a lot and i hope all u guyz reply with ur updates so i can see wats going on with u. i cant check other journals as much cuz the net is hella slow here. so just reply if u can. oh and before i forget
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY BABY!!! I love you and am sorry i couldnt be there. he prolly wont see this but if he does... y r u on the internet?!?!?!? LoL.
Bubye and hope to hear from you all SOON SOON SOON. keep me entertained please?
-Denise

Trust

Tue, 19 Aug 2003 07:13:12 GMT

It can be broken so easily... but can you ever fully trust a person again once they have broken it? I dont know. What if the one person in the world u trust the most does something you never thought they would do? Sure they have an explanation... but what if you think and worry every day... is that really the way to go? Or am i just dwelling on something small that i should just get over? Seems to me that trust is more important to most girls than it is to most guys. Why is that? Why is it that girls care more about everything than guys do? Why do girls always wanna talk about problems and guy give you a simple "i dont know" as an answer? My trust has been broken.. but can it be restored? I dont know... but i wish i did.

my lil survey from mirka :o)

Wed, 30 Jul 2003 06:25:01 GMT

[The Vitals]

x. Full name: Denise Monika

x. Nickname/s: Nisi

x. Location: fremont all the way

x. Age: 19

x. Natural Hair color: brown

x. Eye color: blue

x. Present Hair color: blonde, dark brown, and red streaks

x. Religion: none really

x. Sexual Preference: a manly man :o)

x. Bra size/Penis size: wouldnt u like to know

[The Nosey]

x. What color is your underwear?: pink with white stars and moons

x. Girls, is your bra padded/do you stuff it? nope

x. Do you have a crush on someone? well if u count my bf that

x. Who do you have a crush on? james

x. What is so special about them?: well he's cute, and nice, and he let me bleach his hair :o)... well just the tips... haha

x. Do they like you back? he better!!!

x. Does anyone have a crush on you? i dunno... but if someone does then lemme know :o) haha

x. What turns you on?: ummm a guy with nice hair

x. What turns you off?: someone fake

x. Which celebrities do you find attractive?: jay hernandez

x. Which of your friends do you find attractive? guys? ALL OF THEM hahaha

[The Perverted]

x. Have you ever watched porn? yes

x. Did you enjoy it? haha.. actually yes i did

x. Do you fuck or make love? um yes

x. Have you ever had sex with a girl? no and im not planning on it

x. Have you ever had sex with a boy? my boy

x. Have you ever kissed a girl? yes :o)

x. Have you ever kissed a boy? of course

x. Have you ever gone down on someone? now thats a lil too personal

x. Has anyone gone down on you? hehe

x. Have you ever used any sex toys? ummm not really

x. Do you masturbate? no i dont

x. Do you like S&M? haha...

x. Do you like animals, dead things, children or anything else unacceptable in that way? ew no

x. Are you sexually shy? not really... lil self conscious of my body but besides that not really

x. How many sexual partners have you had? 1

x. Do you have any sexual tips you'd like to share? ummm... kissing on the neck always does the trick :o)

x. Would you ever make out with someone outside your race/religion? yes

x. Would you ever make out with someone who is ugly? ummm not really... i mean i made out with ugly people before but at the time i thought they were cute... who knows wat i was thinkin... lol

x. Would you ever make out with someone who has bad hygiene? no

x. Who do you want to make out with right now? no one... im tired

x. Who do you want to have sex with right now? still tired

x. Are you a kitten in bed? umm sure?

x. Sarah McLachlan or Wild Monkey? huh

x. When was your last perverted dream? a few weeks ago.. but i guess that depends on wat u consider perverted

x. What/who was it about? my cutie

x. Where is the weirdest place you've ever had sex? no place weird yet really... hotel room... not so weird

x. Have you done it in public? no i have not

x. Are you comfortable being naked around people? not at all

x. When was your last orgasm? yesterday

x. What gives you goosebumps? the cold.. lol

[The Morals]

x. Would you kiss someone you don't love? i have

x. Would you have sex with someone you don't love? ummm i dont think so... but im not sure... possibly yes

x. Do you believe in sex before marriage? yes

x. Have you ever been in love? yes

x. Do you want to get married? i think so

[The Ending]

x. What is the time? 11:24

x. How long did this take you? like 15 minutes

x. Did you enjoy this? kinda i guess... i feel a lil weird

x. Are you a pervert? nope not that i know of

x. What did you do most during this survey? talk to laura

LALALALA

Wed, 02 Jul 2003 19:54:07 GMT

YAY my bday is in 2 days... 4th of july all the way baby... 19 years old... im excited... not sure why yet.. :o)

The Countdown Begins

Thu, 17 Apr 2003 03:05:07 GMT

35 School Days Left for Seniors!!!
*That does not include vacation, weekends, or anything else*

YES!!!! We can do it!!!! :o)

BTW: What school is everyone going to????

This goes out to all the people i was ever close to

Thu, 27 Mar 2003 06:48:42 GMT

especially mirka. her last entry inspired me to write this. in her entry she wrote.
"time change, people dont"
that is so true. i remember 8th grade when i was sitting in my history class and someone from high school came in to talk to us about what high school is gonna be like. the thing that stands out in my mind the most is that they said that we should think about who we hang out with now... who our best friends are... and then we should know that more than likely by the end of high school we wont even say more than a casual hi to each other. that was 4 years ago. and i thought they were so wrong. at the time i guess u would say i was best friends with mirka. i hung out with knikka, robin, leah, nicole, and a few other people. i dont even say hi to mirka at school anymore. maybe once every few months. knikka moved and i didnt even say bye. robin and i havnt exchanged a word in prolly well over a year. i still talk to leah. and i hate nicole. but if i think about it... i dont think any of them changed... i think its the times that made us different. jr high was so easy to be in... everyone was friends with everyone... there wasnt as much shit talk... it wasnt all about who dated who and who liked who and who did what with who. all high school really is about is gossip. a bunch of people talkin about other people even though they really have no business in the subject. its not about whose the smartest. its about whose most popular. its not about whose nice, its about who has a nice car to go places in. everyone takes advantage of everyone at some point. and although some people say high school is the best time of ur life i hope theyre wrong. i mean of course ive had some GREAT time in the last few years... but i sure hope it gets better than this. and i hope as time changes... we start to change too... into people that care more about the inside of a person than the outside. comments always welcome :o)

thanks a bunch

Tue, 25 Mar 2003 06:34:36 GMT

Thank you sooo much to all of you. I have decided to give the time off a try. we are still staying together cuz lets face it, we've been together for almost 2 years and its not worth giving somethin like that up when im not even sure. maybe i am scared. who knows. me and him hang out EVERYDAY and now we have decided to cut it down to like 4 days a week. this should help. i do love him a lot but it does have come to that point where sometimes i get annoyed even though there is nothing to be annoyed at. i think its right what they say "girls want wat they cant have". i dont understand girls myself... so how do we expect guys to understand us? if we have a nice guy we wish that we had someone who would be more "manly" but if we have a mean guy we wish we had a really nice guy. wats up with that? no matter wat we have we always gotta doubt it. but i think now its time to take a step back and take some time to see what i really do have, because i know hes a great guy and chances are that i will never ever find someone so cute, smart, and funny again. at the end of the day he ALWAYS makes me laugh even when im mad at him, and his smile is sooo adorable, and even though the way he chews drives me up the wall it also reminds me of all the little things i love about him. so maybe being annoyed is part of being together... and like nick said... you gotta compromise... and everyone has their up and down times and we WILL get through this :o) once again thank u to all and more comments on this thought would be cool. i will definitely try to update more often from now on. lata. and by the way mirka... i have been reading ur journal.. and although i dont talk to u anymore i see that u r having some guy troubles too... and the best thing i can tell you to do is... close your eyes and for one moment imagine being with him... no friends around... no comments from other people even if it is ur best friend in the world... think about the good times and the bad times youve had... and then think if the good time erase the bad... or if the bad erase the good.. and that will give u a simple answer. and if the answer is that there is too much bad then u gotta let go... even if u do think hes awesome... at some point too much is too much and even if it hurts in the long run ur just opening up a new space in ur heart that the RIGHT GUY will be able to fill :o)

Questions

Mon, 24 Mar 2003 06:27:42 GMT

How do you know when youve crossed that line between being comfortable with the person your with and being over them? How do you know when your spending too much time with one another? What if you get annoyed easier every minute but you also feel sad when theyre not around? What then? Is it possible to be with one person forever? Just one. Sure youve had a few bfs before but nothing longer than a few weeks. nothing serious. even if you feel like HE might be the one... how do you know if you havnt tried anything else? And if you do decide to break it off to see other people... then what happens when you realize that you were wrong all along? Can you just get them back? I dont know. I hate the fact that there are so many questions and i have no answer for them. but i know that i love him. but is there someone else i could love too? i dont know. i dont think so. i cant imagine me with someone else. but is that only cuz i havnt tried? or am i just asking myself these questions because im scared? once again, i dont know. things are soooo complicated. if anyone has any insight on any of this i would appreciate any kind of input